MUSIC: Red Pill – Instinctive Drowning
Written by streetsconnect on August 25, 2016
From the album Red Pill “Instinctive Drowning” out August 26th on Mello Music Group http://tinyurl.com/h6rhx6a
Red Pill says that he wanted the song and video, which shows him being ignored by guests at a party as if he was invisible, to “play on this idea that depression and substance abuse isn’t always easy to point out. Cries for help aren’t always obvious.”
It’s not often the art we put out is as heavy as this. Red Pill, known for being filthy honest, has taken it to a new level and created something so intimate it hurts to watch knowing this is his life. Red Pill is more than an actor and this is more than a script – this is the baggage he carries. As a label all we can do is thank him for his honesty in art and shed a tear for one of the most heart wrenching lyrical displays we’ve ever heard. For all those going through the pain of addiction, loss, or anything else, we offer this merely to let you know there are so many out there who get it, who are living through it with you from a far.
Video Produced by Ill Poetic & Ason Intrigue
Assistant Producer Micshon Harper
Directed & Edited by Ason Intrigue
Cinematography by Ronald Copley
Story by Red Pill & Ason Intrigue
A Fringe Life Production Starring…
Red Pill, Ill Poetic, Micshon Harper, Pirate Krew aka Top Camp, Matt Havernek, Phil Sines, Megan Ridge, Jenni Thompson, Jenni Thompson’s friend who we never found a name for, Gwrii, Nes Wordz
Colb Kampa, Grant Gatsby, Angela Makeever, Ason Intrigue
Special thanks to Life Lies Bleeding and Chelsea Anders
CHORUS You are what you know know/the problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul/And the world doesn’t know/you’re lost in the undertow/And those waves come strong/swallowing the water/you can’t say what’s wrong/The surface looks calm/So the rest of them carry on x2 VERSE I remember when the ambulance came/she was unresponsive/Dad was screaming her name/He tried to give her mouth to mouth/Nothing but green fluid she was coughing out/And fucked up thing is we had been there before/I was scared the paramedics had her laid on the floor/They cut her shirt off/And had her chest bare/With his hand over her left breast/and then compressed there/Nothing/They put her in the ambulance and took off/none of us could talk/I think we felt it/we had known for years that she was helpless/But you can’t ever prepare for it/even with the shit she had been through/this was rare for her/they airlifted her to the hospital/she had pulled through before so it was possible/the doctor told us that her brain was dead/seven minutes without oxygen the way it ends/call the priest and have him pray again/maybe God will save her then/almost thirty years of alcohol abuse/she died on April 16th/nobody put her in the news/Her name was Jody Ann/I felt the coldness of her body at the funeral the last time I would hold her hand CHORUS x2 VERSE You think that I don’t see the warning signs/death by the bottle/I’m immortalized/On every corner there’s a trigger for me/A big neon sign saying there’s liquor pouring/A big neon sign just to remind me of it/A big neon sign saying my time is coming/Just shy of the age of when her liver failed/most of my money been spent on liquor sales/and you can talk about the reasons/you can chalk it up to talking to my demons/maybe it’s something gone undiagnosed/ maybe I’m scared of suicide so I’m dying slow/Yeah – Mr. Slow Suicide/with his big fucking heart and regret is in his eyes/It’s only medicine/It’s only something to feel better when my head is in/a fucking tailspin and I hate myself/When I’m overwhelmed with life/and I can’t save myself/Went from a little to a fifth a day/I just wanna go back/How did it get this way?/I just wanna go back how did it get this way?/And what would Kath do without me?/ What would Dad do without me?/look what I would leave behind/But I feel like I’m losing my mind/I’m a loser/I sing the blues/I’m not doing too fine/The other night I had a dream/I’m in a car without a driver, in the passenger seat/and right behind me was my mother and a child/and I smiled/She hadn’t come to see me in awhile/The thing about dreams is nothing is odd/We were flying down the Lodge/I was thinking about God/The mood started to change/Looked back and my mother slowly turned to remains/The baby was gone and I looked to my right/Out the window and they had taken the good in my life/And like a movie/A car had pulled up next to me/Couldn’t tell who it was driving the hooptie/He pulled up ahead and pulled out a gun/I tried yelling/but my words wouldn’t come/He points it at me then I hear from the sky/I’m gonna make you famous/I’m gonna make you famous/I’m gonna make you famous/I’m gonna make you famous/I’m gonna make you famous/I’m gonna make you famous/And then came the.